Don’t you love it when the Lord gives you a special verse from the Bible over and over again, at different times and in different places? Lately, God has been speaking to me through Psalms 46:10, “Be still and know that I am God.” That promise is soothing to my soul. It makes me want to say “Ahhhhhhh” and relax.
You see, I’m not naturally a “be still” kind of girl. I tend to think I need to strive to help God, in my own self reliant kind of way. (As if He needs my help). I constantly need to remind myself, I am a human being–not a human doing. I am learning to rest in Him and trust Him, especially when circumstances all around me seem overwhelming and out of my control.
A couple of months ago I had phase II of oral surgery to put implants in my upper jaw. The surgery took 4 hours for 5 implants and a bone graft. For healing purposes, I couldn’t put my dentures in for a month. Pureed food, pureed soups, smoothies, and juicing only were on my list of what I could eat for the first month of healing.
The first week after surgery was the toughest for me: Throbbing pain from the bone graft, hungry for real food, grieving my temporary loss of comfort food, still too fluffy to fit into my fall clothes, walking by the mirror and wondering who is this old lady–it wasn’t the best of times. It’s been a very long season of dental suffering for me–I actually may write a book about it one day. Usually, healing is with pain and it HURTS! I hate pain.
I acknowledged all of my emotions before the Lord: the good, bad and the ugly. But then I knew I had a choice to make. I had to chews…what my attitude would be for the rest of the month? Would this suffering draw me closer to the Lord or would I blame Him for my pain? Would I constantly be grumpy and bite Terry’s head off, even without my teeth? I knew I wanted to chews thankfulness. As hard as it was to slurp my soup down while Terry was crunching on real food–I began to thank God for what I was able to drink and swallow.
What am I learning in my suffering? I am learning:
- This world really sucks at times and I need Jesus to help me through each day.
- God loves me and I can be honest with Him.
- To wait on God and to listen for Him.
- To trust Him, especially when it’s hard.
- To surrender my selfish will to His purposes for me.
- To receive His comfort He offers through the Holy Spirit.
- That I will never quit learning.
Food is a necessity for life. I think that’s why the enemy used food to deceive Eve and Adam. Satan also used food to tempt Jesus when He was fasting for 40 days! It’s true we need food to physically live. Spiritually, we need Jesus. Satan does His best to deceive us to see our biggest need–The need for a personal Savior, Jesus Christ.
CHEWS JESUS…Taste and see that the Lord is good.